I write today full of anger and sadness. I am not even sure if I can express the pain I feel in words. Over and over again I see individuals that call themselves Christians turning from God. It is not only the despair I feel of losing them but how soon Satan enters into their hearts and turns them against their previous brethren. Just as he did Judas – he enters that void that grows when we turn our back on the very One that is trying to love and save us. These individuals are so full of hatred and bitterness. They manipulate God’s people so that they can share in their blessings. They are blind to the pain they cause. How far will they go – until they completely destroy us?! How often we believe they have turned to God yet again – just to find they are using us! My heart breaks and I am unable to write without tears. So often I am completely destroyed by the ones closest to me. As they speak of how they are changing, my hopes grow so large just to have the rug ripped out from under me. People wonder why I cannot trust anyone or get close to people that I am not 100% certain are wholeheartedly after God. I can only hope God turns these individuals back to Him because I can’t – God! I wish I could!! As Paul said, I would give my life if only my brethren would seek God. But here I am hopeless – unable to do anything – watching them once again destroy their lives and bring it to shambles. Oh, how Jesus wants to prove his love to them but they keep running from Him with all their might. They despise His ways. They despise the cross. They refuse to give up their hopes, desires, and dreams that He might give them more than what they ever imagined. His Way may not ever be what we had in mind – but I can assure you in the end it will not disappoint. Thus, why this way is not often chosen and is less traveled. It seems dark and so against what WE had in mind and planned for our lives. But if we could only give up what WE want, He could shower us in the amazing thing He had planned. I choose to hold on against all hope – when everyone else seems to depart. It makes me hold on stronger. They may not want You, Lord; but I do! You are all I have God. I have given so much up to follow You- a sister, a potential husband, a father, a brother, and so many more I can’t begin to count. I thank you for those that You have given me that do not lose their hold of You – that have an even stronger grip than me. I thank You I am not alone in this fight for Life. And I can only pray Lord that you save those that You have chosen and bring them back to Yourself.
For I know the plans that I have for you,’ declares the LORD, ‘plans for well-being, and not for calamity, in order to give you a future and a hope. When you call out to me and come and pray to me, I’ll hear you. You will seek me and find me when you search for me with all your heart. I’ll be found by you,’ declares the LORD, ‘and I’ll restore your security and gather you from all the nations and all the places to which I’ve driven you,’ declares the LORD. ‘I’ll bring you back to the place from which I sent you into exile.’
This is one of the verses I hold to in these times. I may not know what God is doing or His plans – but I can completely trust in His ways and He will never disappoint.
sa 55:1 “Come, everyone who is thirsty, come to the waters! Also, you that have no money, come, buy, and eat! Come! Buy wine and milk without money and without price.
Isa 55:2 Why spend your money on what is not bread, and your labor on what does not satisfy? Listen carefully to me, and eat what is good, and let your soul delight itself in rich food. (Why do we insist on searching after THINGS instead of Christ Himself – He is the ONLY One that will satisfy our craving?!)
Isa 55:3 Pay attention to me, come to me; and listen, so that you may live; then I’ll make an everlasting covenant with you, as promised by my faithful, sure love for David.
Isa 55:4 “Look! I have made him a witness to the peoples, a leader and commander of the peoples.
Isa 55:5 “Look! You will call a nation that you do not know, and a nation that does not know you will run to you, because of the LORD your God, even the Holy One of Israel, for he has glorified you.”
Isa 55:6 “Seek the LORD while he may be found, call upon him while he is near.
Isa 55:7 Let the wicked forsake his way, and the unrighteous person his thoughts. Let him return to the LORD, So he’ll have mercy upon him, and to our God, for he’ll pardon abundantly.
Isa 55:8 For my thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways my ways,” declares the LORD.
Isa 55:9 “For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.
Isa 55:10 “For just as the rain and snow come down from heaven, and do not return there without watering the earth, making it bring forth and sprout, yielding seed for the sower and bread for eating,
Isa 55:11 so will my message be that goes out of my mouth—it won’t return to me empty. Instead, it will accomplish what I desire, and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.
Isa 55:12 “For you will go out in joy, and come back with peace; the mountains and the hills will burst into song before you, and all the trees in the fields will clap their hands.
Isa 55:13 Instead of thornbushes, pine trees will grow, and instead of briers, myrtles will grow; and they will be a sign for the LORD, and an everlasting name that will not be cut off.“